Tuesday, July 20, 2010
i think its now that i see the truth clearly..
i dont noe how u feel...
like you said, if I KNEW, we wont end up like this...
since we ended up like this, its obviously I DONT...
i cant keep thinking of wad i dont have, i.e. ur point of view...
no matter how hard i thin, i still wont have...
but i still have my point of view...
all i noe is, we really dont have much communication...
this was one of the reason that caz the breakdown...
another was probably the lack of time together...
this will worsen the above point...
lastly...
all i noe is i m always the one in the wrong...
no how correct i think i am at first...
i always ended up being the bad person...
you are always right...
nv wrong...
its ok if i play the bad person...
i dont mind.. as long as u r happy...
but apparently u r not...
neither did u wan to talk abt e problem...
there is nothing i can do...
ni kai xin jiu hao...
so we ended up like that...
u r happier the way u r...
but still the same old sentence...
as long as you are happy:)
i dont believe you can jux let go this feeling jux like that...
or mb i m jux pro enough to let u accumulate till the extend that u can do so?
idk and i will nv noe...
i really dont believe months is enough to forget abt the yrs...
but i do believe you r happier now:)
but sorry, i cant jux let go of all these even though i thought i did...
instead, i realised that my heart was frozen, it is numb...
memories were locked inside, feelings are contained...
i could no longer feel or see the past...
i m afraid when this ice melt and let all the memories and feelings revive....
i m unable to take it...
even be4 the ice ever melts...
i still miss u terribly...
i found out why everytime i make a wish at 11:11, it doesnt come true...
caz my clock is set 4 mins earlier...
so by right, its not time yet...
wishes dont come true:(
Labels: A walking ice with no history
11:09 PM
